Suddenly I would start trembling, crying for no reason. I would just go numb, unable to speak or explain what I was feeling. I had no idea what was happening to me, and this fact was enough to scare me.
This phase used to last for few long minutes and then I would just get fine. Completely functional as before.
I never shared this with anyone. Expecting that things will get better on their own. But they didn’t. Instead the frequency of such breakdowns started increasing. It took me a lot of time to be able to pull myself up.
I got into this habit of writing down my thoughts, whenever I felt low or could sense that a breakdown was on its way. This really helped.
But for me the key was to be able to identify few people around me with whom I could talk to and share my feelings. And this has really helped me to get better and eventually the frequency of such breakdowns has reduced substantially.